Fell off the face of the earth

I didn't really but I noticed I have made a post since mid April, yikes!  Good job I don't get paid for this or I would definitely not be making any money :)

Where am I on my happiness, soul searching journey?  Hmm, it seems I have come to a fork in the road and I am stuck yet desperately looking for a clearing or clear path. I have some things I need to let go of as they are out of my control but I just can't move past it. I am worried about someone whom I love very much and the change I see in them worries me.  It is clouding the clear path that I was on and I can't move the clouds away. Tension and stress has built back up as my schedule has changed, I find myself wanting to escape again.

Hoping to clear the clouds away by learning mindfulness techniques but am finding it hard to pay attention to the lesson. . .don't know why but I find it funny that I can't focus on the lessons. *sigh*

The chocolate wonder aka Harlow is now six months old and 50 lbs of solid puppy. She vibrates when she sees water and is happiest when off leash and running through the water, sand and down the trails of the island. I try to take her 3-4 times a week to just her run and be free. We still walk each morning and I have found that on the odd day where we've missed the morning walk (rain) I don't feel as balanced as when we do.

made it to the end of the island

a relaxing break in the water

The weather is finally warming up and I have baskets and window boxes all done on the deck.  My Clematis has exploded this year, full of big white flowers and bushy. We had to buy a new gazebo as they discontinued the canvas top for my old one.  Decided to buy one a bit smaller and glad I did as now my back door opens completely. The front garden is looking nice with lots of green and some pops of colour with large hanging baskets of white Lobelia and in the garden some bright pink Impatiens among my different variations of Hostas. 

Next up is to repaint the eating area, taking it back to taupe from red and I need to purge the junk room aka the spare bedroom. Maybe purging will help me get back on track. :)