Fell off the face of the earth

I didn't really but I noticed I have made a post since mid April, yikes!  Good job I don't get paid for this or I would definitely not be making any money :)

Where am I on my happiness, soul searching journey?  Hmm, it seems I have come to a fork in the road and I am stuck yet desperately looking for a clearing or clear path. I have some things I need to let go of as they are out of my control but I just can't move past it. I am worried about someone whom I love very much and the change I see in them worries me.  It is clouding the clear path that I was on and I can't move the clouds away. Tension and stress has built back up as my schedule has changed, I find myself wanting to escape again.

Hoping to clear the clouds away by learning mindfulness techniques but am finding it hard to pay attention to the lesson. . .don't know why but I find it funny that I can't focus on the lessons. *sigh*

The chocolate wonder aka Harlow is now six months old and 50 lbs of solid puppy. She vibrates when she sees water and is happiest when off leash and running through the water, sand and down the trails of the island. I try to take her 3-4 times a week to just her run and be free. We still walk each morning and I have found that on the odd day where we've missed the morning walk (rain) I don't feel as balanced as when we do.

made it to the end of the island

a relaxing break in the water

The weather is finally warming up and I have baskets and window boxes all done on the deck.  My Clematis has exploded this year, full of big white flowers and bushy. We had to buy a new gazebo as they discontinued the canvas top for my old one.  Decided to buy one a bit smaller and glad I did as now my back door opens completely. The front garden is looking nice with lots of green and some pops of colour with large hanging baskets of white Lobelia and in the garden some bright pink Impatiens among my different variations of Hostas. 

Next up is to repaint the eating area, taking it back to taupe from red and I need to purge the junk room aka the spare bedroom. Maybe purging will help me get back on track. :)

Been Awhile

I have not posted for a month, I am not good at this blogging thing. Does it count if I thought about posting?  What if you had a really good story in your head but you just couldn't type it out properly. .

Honestly I have been in a funk for many reasons. First being my beloved little pink EHD died and with it went 400GB of my life ( you can cringe or say a bad word now). Now the upside of this is I had all my photos backed up to my new networked drive and some of my digi scrapping stash. It actually died while I was transferring files over. I know a computer guru and quickly contacted him to see if he could resuscitate pinky. Over I went with new portable drive in hand full of hope that he could retrieve my files. . . . . .I waited and waited (patience not my best virtue) but finally I got the news the drive was 'parked', he could see my files but couldn't get to them. . . . . .NO! Next option was sending it away at the minimum of $1500, umm, yeah not happening, if I had that money there would be a new camera or vacation on the horizon.  I managed to get a bunch of my links reset and stuff moved over and decided to let go of stuff I lost as I have ALL of my pictures which is the most important part.

In other news. . . Spring/summer has arrived!  Sun, seventies and open windows makes me so happy. I got all my gardening done and love my little space, the deck is blooming with the colours of yellow, blue, purple and white. Flower beds are looking good both front and back. Thoroughly enjoyed having my coffee and reading on the deck last weekend. Looking forward to more mornings out there.